Have you ever just sat and thought ... about nothing ... about the future ... about ... whatever ...
I am saying this because I was talking to my uncle tonight and his BABY girl is now a married woman ... his last baby is out of the house and making a life of her own ... He was at the verge of tears recalling himself walking his baby down the aisle and giving her away to a man that wants to make a life with her.
I had a thought .... What will I be doing when Piper is getting married ... will I be bawling hysterically? Will I be gleaming with radiant pride because she has a man like her father that loves her no matter what? Will I be begging her to think about it because I don't get a good vibe from this man she is about to marry? Will her daddy be there to walk her down the aisle? Will my parents live to see her start her own life?
Will my boys find themselves godly women to share their lives with? Will they be blessed?
I have had my fair share of experience with men that weren't who they wanted me to believe they are .... I have had 2 failed marriages in the last 12 years .... and nathan walks into my life and totallly changes me look on love and relationships.
Back to what I was saying ... I do not want my children to experience multi marriages, broken hearts, cheating, lying or affairs ... I want my children to have a spouse that they will love for the rest of their lives, be blessed with children, and live HAPPILY in the Lords care.
The thought of my babies already out of the nest and moving on with their lives is WAY to much for me to handle at this point but I know the day is coming ... I know my birds will have to fly away and make their own nest ... Breaks my heart to think that it will happen WAY before I can prepare myself ...
Thought to ponder ... eh?
Saturday, July 4, 2009
4th of July ...
I has been a quiet 4th this year ... it is the first weekend of the month ... so I am childless .. We did have lunch today with the family (children included) ... We had some AMAZING steak and the trout that we caught in vacation. Of course ... dad cooked it and it was AMAZING. Then ... we went to my cousins house for a kiddos birthday and we had all of my mom's side of the family there ... it was nice ... other than Nathan had to work and he didn't get to go ... But ... what do I
do? He provides an amazing home for us ...
The kids all went back to their father, Jaret spent the night with my parents and here I am .... ALONE .... and I kind of like it!
do? He provides an amazing home for us ...
The kids all went back to their father, Jaret spent the night with my parents and here I am .... ALONE .... and I kind of like it!
Thursday, July 2, 2009
The Story of Nathan and I
It has been asked that I post the story of Nathan and I ... So ..
I have a friend, Tina Hedger, that was convinced she had the man for me!! She started telling me about him in August of 2005 and I was REALLY in no mood for a man at that point considering I was seperated from the last husband and I was swearing off men COMPLETELY! I was trying to work and make a life for 4 people ... 3 of which are my children ... being a single mom with 3 kids is possibly the most difficult thing. Tina and I started talking more and she would bring "this guy Nathan" up more and more. About January she had started making plans to introduce us. I wanted NOTHING to do with it!! So .. in February, she and her husband Stewart hosted a Superbowl Party and I, of course, was invited and apparently so was Nathan! I was in the bathroom attending to a bloody child of a friend and when I walked through her living room to get further supplies for the child, I caught a glimpse of this handsome, TALL fellow that I instantly knew was Nathan. I went back to the bathroom where Casey, another friend was ... and I started chewing her out for "tricking" me into coming so that I would be forced to meet him .. she played the innocent part like she knew NOTHING ... hmmm ... still don't know if she knew or not ... but oh well ...
Well, as soon as I had the guts to come out of the bathroom, Stewart takes me by the hand and leads me to where I was face to face (well ... ok ... face to chest) with Nathan. I said hello and had to walk away because I thought my nerves were gonna make me vomit! He was cute and he had a smile that could melt an iceberg!! By the end of the night I was talking to him and he had asked me if I would like to have dinner with him the following night. Monday came and he was helping Stewart with their fence. So I went to Tina's and met him there .... He realized that it was after 6 and apologized and asked if I would meet him at his house so that he could take a shower and get ready ... I said sure and he took off out of Tina's house like his pants were on fire! I had to get directions from Stewart as to where he lived and I left about 20 minutes later. I got to his house .... his house that read BACHELOR ... and we went to dinner ... Texas Roadhouse for our first date!! It was GREAT! We sat and talked for hours like we had known each other all our lives.
Before I knew it ... he asked me to move in with him .. I was paying rent and he had a house but it seemed that we stayed with him more than I did at my apartment! So ... we packed up my apartment and moved myself and 3 kids into his house. That was a change!! We had some less than thrilled people (his ex wife and my ex husband) ... but ... I knew I loved this guy and that I wanted to be with him. We had no plans to marry anytime soon ..... This was in September. In December I was having all kinds of issues with my stomach ... so we thought .... I worked for the Canyon CLinic so I had them do a "test" .... a TEST that determined my future .... it told me yes ... so ... Yes it was gonna be ... I was gonna be Nathan's wife ..... I was pregnant.
Telling Nathan was interesting ... he turned white, blue, gray, ashy ...... then he sat down and looked at me with that look you get when you are suddenly punched in the stomach! I was crying of course ... he took my hand and sat me in his lap and hugged me ... I remember exactly what he said. "It is all going to be ok ... a little unexpected but not unwanted. It is going to be ok!" He went to my dad ... told him of the circumstances and explained to my dad that we were not marrying because I was pregnant .. He wanted to marry me because he LOVED me!! So ... December 23rd of 2006 we were married.
The catch to all that is ... there was never a formal proposal ... Nathan had ordered my ring and it got set back in the shipping ... so it never showed up for him to do the whole proposal thing ... he had an amazing plan for it ... but with my luck ... it never happened ... The morning of December 23rd the Fed Ex man delivered a package at 11:15 AM ... this was the package that Nathan had been waiting for! It contained my ring. I was standing in the kitchen when he came around the corner with a ring in his hand ... kids in tow .... I took a deep breath and .... took off down the hallway and jumped into the bed and threw the covers over my head .... For some reason all the kids staring at me made me embarrassed! (haha) .. so he came in, shut the door and pulled the covers off my head ... He looked so cute with his concerned look ... of course I was going to marry him ... of course I was going to accept this beautiful ring that he had made for me ... so ... in the few minutes we had alone ... he asked me to be his bride and I said ... YES ...
We were getting married at 3 pm THAT DAY!! Whew ... talk about close call!! I already had a ring for him ... mine ... was finally there ... everything and everyone important was there ... that is all that mattered! I was off to my parents to finish getting things ready and I wasn't feeling really good ... I put it off to being newly pregnant and just dealt with it ... Nathan and I were married at 3 pm on December 23rd with no problems .... it was a short, yet sweet ceremony ... Nathan had to be back to work at 3 am the next morning so needless to say ... there was no honeymoon and actually still hasn't been .. but he has a plan for either Vegas or a trip to a beach!! All in the timing!!
The morning of December 29th, I woke up to something horrible ... I had lost the pregnancy. I was sitting in the bathroom floor when Nathan came in ... I was crying hysterically and telling him I was so sorry ... he couldn't figure out what in the world had me so upset ... I was finally able to tell him that I had started to bleed and with his big arms .. he wrapped me up and told me it was going to be okay ... That is all he has to do now ... take me in his big arms and I know that it is going to be okay!
I have a friend, Tina Hedger, that was convinced she had the man for me!! She started telling me about him in August of 2005 and I was REALLY in no mood for a man at that point considering I was seperated from the last husband and I was swearing off men COMPLETELY! I was trying to work and make a life for 4 people ... 3 of which are my children ... being a single mom with 3 kids is possibly the most difficult thing. Tina and I started talking more and she would bring "this guy Nathan" up more and more. About January she had started making plans to introduce us. I wanted NOTHING to do with it!! So .. in February, she and her husband Stewart hosted a Superbowl Party and I, of course, was invited and apparently so was Nathan! I was in the bathroom attending to a bloody child of a friend and when I walked through her living room to get further supplies for the child, I caught a glimpse of this handsome, TALL fellow that I instantly knew was Nathan. I went back to the bathroom where Casey, another friend was ... and I started chewing her out for "tricking" me into coming so that I would be forced to meet him .. she played the innocent part like she knew NOTHING ... hmmm ... still don't know if she knew or not ... but oh well ...
Well, as soon as I had the guts to come out of the bathroom, Stewart takes me by the hand and leads me to where I was face to face (well ... ok ... face to chest) with Nathan. I said hello and had to walk away because I thought my nerves were gonna make me vomit! He was cute and he had a smile that could melt an iceberg!! By the end of the night I was talking to him and he had asked me if I would like to have dinner with him the following night. Monday came and he was helping Stewart with their fence. So I went to Tina's and met him there .... He realized that it was after 6 and apologized and asked if I would meet him at his house so that he could take a shower and get ready ... I said sure and he took off out of Tina's house like his pants were on fire! I had to get directions from Stewart as to where he lived and I left about 20 minutes later. I got to his house .... his house that read BACHELOR ... and we went to dinner ... Texas Roadhouse for our first date!! It was GREAT! We sat and talked for hours like we had known each other all our lives.
Before I knew it ... he asked me to move in with him .. I was paying rent and he had a house but it seemed that we stayed with him more than I did at my apartment! So ... we packed up my apartment and moved myself and 3 kids into his house. That was a change!! We had some less than thrilled people (his ex wife and my ex husband) ... but ... I knew I loved this guy and that I wanted to be with him. We had no plans to marry anytime soon ..... This was in September. In December I was having all kinds of issues with my stomach ... so we thought .... I worked for the Canyon CLinic so I had them do a "test" .... a TEST that determined my future .... it told me yes ... so ... Yes it was gonna be ... I was gonna be Nathan's wife ..... I was pregnant.
Telling Nathan was interesting ... he turned white, blue, gray, ashy ...... then he sat down and looked at me with that look you get when you are suddenly punched in the stomach! I was crying of course ... he took my hand and sat me in his lap and hugged me ... I remember exactly what he said. "It is all going to be ok ... a little unexpected but not unwanted. It is going to be ok!" He went to my dad ... told him of the circumstances and explained to my dad that we were not marrying because I was pregnant .. He wanted to marry me because he LOVED me!! So ... December 23rd of 2006 we were married.
The catch to all that is ... there was never a formal proposal ... Nathan had ordered my ring and it got set back in the shipping ... so it never showed up for him to do the whole proposal thing ... he had an amazing plan for it ... but with my luck ... it never happened ... The morning of December 23rd the Fed Ex man delivered a package at 11:15 AM ... this was the package that Nathan had been waiting for! It contained my ring. I was standing in the kitchen when he came around the corner with a ring in his hand ... kids in tow .... I took a deep breath and .... took off down the hallway and jumped into the bed and threw the covers over my head .... For some reason all the kids staring at me made me embarrassed! (haha) .. so he came in, shut the door and pulled the covers off my head ... He looked so cute with his concerned look ... of course I was going to marry him ... of course I was going to accept this beautiful ring that he had made for me ... so ... in the few minutes we had alone ... he asked me to be his bride and I said ... YES ...
We were getting married at 3 pm THAT DAY!! Whew ... talk about close call!! I already had a ring for him ... mine ... was finally there ... everything and everyone important was there ... that is all that mattered! I was off to my parents to finish getting things ready and I wasn't feeling really good ... I put it off to being newly pregnant and just dealt with it ... Nathan and I were married at 3 pm on December 23rd with no problems .... it was a short, yet sweet ceremony ... Nathan had to be back to work at 3 am the next morning so needless to say ... there was no honeymoon and actually still hasn't been .. but he has a plan for either Vegas or a trip to a beach!! All in the timing!!
The morning of December 29th, I woke up to something horrible ... I had lost the pregnancy. I was sitting in the bathroom floor when Nathan came in ... I was crying hysterically and telling him I was so sorry ... he couldn't figure out what in the world had me so upset ... I was finally able to tell him that I had started to bleed and with his big arms .. he wrapped me up and told me it was going to be okay ... That is all he has to do now ... take me in his big arms and I know that it is going to be okay!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Inspiration ...
I love to read others blogs ... especially Stephanie's! She has such a way about her! Anyways ... she has inspired me to write in mine ... It has been a while ... so I will attempt to update without making this too boring!
The boys went to Houston/Galveston with my parents and had a great time!! It seems that they LOVE the beach! After they got back (just 48 SHORT hours later) ... we were packed and in the cars headed for Branson MO. I had NO idea about how AMAZING the scenery is outside of the Texas Panhandle! They have TREES and MILLIONS of them!! We stayed on Lake Taneycomo in Branson and it was the most beautiful lake I have ever seen! The water was sooo cold and so the breeze coming off the lake was cool! Which was a WELCOME change because it was over 100 degrees while we were there with 100% humidity.
I am not going to bore you with ALL the details but I can say ... it was a BLAST!
The boys went to Houston/Galveston with my parents and had a great time!! It seems that they LOVE the beach! After they got back (just 48 SHORT hours later) ... we were packed and in the cars headed for Branson MO. I had NO idea about how AMAZING the scenery is outside of the Texas Panhandle! They have TREES and MILLIONS of them!! We stayed on Lake Taneycomo in Branson and it was the most beautiful lake I have ever seen! The water was sooo cold and so the breeze coming off the lake was cool! Which was a WELCOME change because it was over 100 degrees while we were there with 100% humidity.
I am not going to bore you with ALL the details but I can say ... it was a BLAST!
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